Ed and I have recently begun a tradition. He usually eats at a Chinese restaurant once a week or so, and he usually picks up a fortune cookie for me. We make a big deal about it. I feel it, rub it, and tell him that our fate is in my hand.
Ed and I have been in this mode for the past, oh, say 10 years or so, where we feel like nothing GOOD ever happens to us. We work hard, and we are good people, but it seems like luck, karma, or whatever it is you want to call it just isn't on our side. Now, granted, in the grand scheme of thing, we know we have a good life, and we KNOW it could be much, much worse. But you know those people who seem to have everything fall into their lap? Well, we have no such luck. We kind of live under the notion, "If it can go wrong, it will".
Well, my New Year's resolution has been to put forth positive energy and eternal optimism, even in the face of trials. Because I have begun to realize that perhaps it is my state of mind that reinforces this lack of "luck". I am expecting the other shoe to drop, I'm anticipating the worst-case scenario. I don't expect good things to happen, I don't expect to be rewarded for my hard work. So, I have kept my chin up! And, let me tell you, it has been a challenging first three weeks of 2012!
Friday, Ed presented me with my fortune cookie. He said he labored over which cookie was his, and which should be mine. He weighed them in his hands, studied them, and decided on the cookie that should be mine. I unwrapped it, and it said....
"It is hard to see the sky from the bottom of the well"
Here's to pulling myself out of the well, and believing in bigger and better things for 2012!
